This emptiness

This emptiness is so strange..
Keeps Banging in my head..
Letting me know it's presence..
Drowning me deep down...
Where I struggle..
To keep my head high...
To hide my filled eyes...
To stop the drop of water...
From my bloodstream...
To stop that tear...
Sliding down to my cheeks...
Pulling my lips...
To a forced smile...
And to escape to a corner...
Where I can let loose...
And remember myself...
When I see myself..
My image in the mirror...
Looks broken ...
Looks shattered...
When I try to get hold...
Everything slides down...
Like mare sand from my hand...
The roads very long...
And the pain permanent...
The struggle real...
My soul torn apart...
And I keep thinking...
What I did to deserve this???