Roads...

I have seen the roads..
The ups and downs...
The strong and the weak...
The dry the ,muddy...
And the storms in between...
The river I have to cross...
Sometimes the cold breeze..
And the beautiful scenery..
From d crowd and the lone side...
From the darkness...
And the light...
The never ending and the short ones...
I have walked miles....
Thoughtless and lonely ...
I have walked alone and with people...
But I have kept walking...
Happiness and the laughter...
And the terrifying lonely ones...
But I kept walking...
Sometimes can see ahead...
People coming n going ....
Crossing me...
Sometimes the blind turns...
Don't know what coming ahead...
But I kept walking...
Sometimes alert and sometimes careless...
I fell ... got hurt...
Raised and again started walking....
Never to stop...
No one can't stop...
The roads will end someday...
I ll reach home...
Will sit and rejoice...
Someday...I ll...
That's life... u come and walk...
Along with people and alone...
And leave it someday....

Destiny....

       The water drop just sliding through his polished skin .its a perfect image, like a dream . Drops of water coming down from his sharp nose and chin. he looks distracted . drowning in some deep thoughts. the piercing eyes are closed. he looks like some dream.... such a perfection. like someone has painted a portrait . may be he is a illusion or he is actually there. my mind is playing with me. the air is not there or am i out of breath ? it seems the water is being vaporized after touching his skin. now the waterfall seems less beautiful and it seems everything went colorless. i came out of my dream world. he is now looking at me. it seems my blood is freezing. i can feel my heartbeat go faster. he starts walking towards me. i move a few steps back. i don't know why but my mind and my heart are saying different things. he smiles. and a few drops of water from his chin slides down to his chest through his neck. i see the drops slide. i know this thing is going to haunt me for days. fear grabs my mind what if i he rejects me. his smile and his eyes, are so mesmerizing. now he takes a few steps forward in a fast pace. my minds stops thinking something else. i freeze there. he comes to me , near me.  He is extending his hand towards me  . i  move forward to reach his hand . his hands touches mine . suddenly all the coldness is gone . a fiery heat replaces the coolness. It is like some ecstasy. Which was capturing me within it . i am unable to think now. all i can see is the heat of the moment that is blocking my mind now. he pulls me into the waterfall. now water flowed over me making the two of us together . our body collided. Water has also changed its direction. Now his hands supporting me so farm like my destiny. Yet the touch was so gentle . so soft , and the gaze so dramatic ............

to be continued....

dream-1

 He was holding my hand and was looking straight in my eyes . i was freezed, in capable to move . he was silent , silent like a noon in desert . silent but there was a fire in his eyes . the heat rose from his eyes and transferred through his hand . and the same heat was penetrating in my heart , it was flowing on my nerves like a current . i was losing my control over my heart and my soul . he said he loves me . i was trying to reply but my lips were shut like they have sealed forever . my body became numb . i was surrendering myself . i looked into his eyes . so deep like an ocean . he leaned over his breathing catching mine . like a storm . i closed my eyes . a tiny drop of tear escaped . which i was trying to hold back . they are precious he said ....

UGLINESS

i ran and ran...

was running all the while,

but i couldn't escape..

from the burning truth and all the deeds,

my own deed and plans,

the suffering is long and painful...

i don’t know how to escape from those staring eyes...

hiding the pain the hurt...

in which now i am a expert..

i used to be innocent and clean...

the calm on my face and the smile...

i feel like sinned...

today is no-one’s fault

its just mine..

i stay happy and laugh..

at-least i pretend to be..

involve myself in endless conversations...

so my lie shouldn’t collapse..

it should remain forever....

people get annoyed but i laugh and laugh

until i cry and till then people are gone..

they have seen the happy part with the gleaming eyes..

lets not make them see the ugliest part ...

sore eyes, spoiled and smeared mascara...

lets not see the ugliness that stays inside me..

the demon will cut out my heart...

and make me believe someday that i can’t do it anymore..

inside a happy frame stays a witch..

which i cant let out..

i scream i cry when they haunt me...

the memories of my past and the darkness..

i stay in dark like trapped...

pain, it never leaves me..

i fight one more night and win over my filth..

alas! there will be a morning .. the sun will rise..

again i ll rinse my face with the tears ...

will have to wear a mask of happiness...

and walk with a bunch of happy people to hide the ugliness inside....