Last-time

This is the last time and this is the first I waited for u ...
The last time I got crushed by u..
This is the last time I stayed near and moved so far...
The last time I waited for u to understand...
And this is the first time I knew I can survive..
This is the last time I stayed mum... when u shouted...
This is the first time I didn't wanted to stop u..
This is the last time I cried from inside and showed I don't care..
This is the first time I knew my strength...
I am a changed soul now ...
This is the first time I protected myself like a stone..
This is the last time I controlled my heart..
And the first time I let my brain speak and protect...
Because u know, u used to be a part of my heart...
How can someone betray their own heart..
I couldn't..
This is the last time I worried about why are u not smiling...
This is the last time I was angry that someone brought tears in your pretty eyes...
This is the last Time I was bothered about the future...
This is the last time I died in silence... while anger took control of u ..
May be this is the first time u thought about my pain when u looked at me ...
But may be it's too late...
There was a aura a power what always kept us together...
This is the first time I couldn't find that bonding...
This is the last time I let u hurt me...
This is the last time i mourned over my second family...
This is the last time I let myself die...
This is the first time I had the courage to hold myself...
This is the last time I knew l ll build myself..
N I ll wait the fire to come down...

P.s-this is clearly not related to any person dead or alive this is totally the outcome of my weird thoughts of my equally weird mind.. 😉