I let u go

I let u go...
I make you free today...
The bond ll remain always...
The offense will remain...
Sadness and pain will be there...
I ll keep it close to my heart...
To feel the pain and the fear..
To loose u someday..
I knew this day ll come...
I wish I could've held you back...
I wish I had done it better....
The temptation is everlasting..
To hold you, to keep you...
I won't force but I beg ...
To turn back, to stay...
I am leaving forever...
But you ask me to stay ....
I ll stay... I ll forgive...
The pain the love has a bonding... they ll never be separated... they won't be together... one of them stays... the other one dies...
In us love had to die...
I can't Change the fate...but I pray to God to atleast let the memories live...
Let the fragrance stay...
Let the story to be told...
I wish u to turn back someday...
And look at what have you done to me...
To listen to the story retold...
That was once ours...

Last-time

This is the last time and this is the first I waited for u ...
The last time I got crushed by u..
This is the last time I stayed near and moved so far...
The last time I waited for u to understand...
And this is the first time I knew I can survive..
This is the last time I stayed mum... when u shouted...
This is the first time I didn't wanted to stop u..
This is the last time I cried from inside and showed I don't care..
This is the first time I knew my strength...
I am a changed soul now ...
This is the first time I protected myself like a stone..
This is the last time I controlled my heart..
And the first time I let my brain speak and protect...
Because u know, u used to be a part of my heart...
How can someone betray their own heart..
I couldn't..
This is the last time I worried about why are u not smiling...
This is the last time I was angry that someone brought tears in your pretty eyes...
This is the last Time I was bothered about the future...
This is the last time I died in silence... while anger took control of u ..
May be this is the first time u thought about my pain when u looked at me ...
But may be it's too late...
There was a aura a power what always kept us together...
This is the first time I couldn't find that bonding...
This is the last time I let u hurt me...
This is the last time i mourned over my second family...
This is the last time I let myself die...
This is the first time I had the courage to hold myself...
This is the last time I knew l ll build myself..
N I ll wait the fire to come down...

P.s-this is clearly not related to any person dead or alive this is totally the outcome of my weird thoughts of my equally weird mind.. 😉

That is life....

I always thought things should be done a manner. May it be love , may it be friendship, may it be hate. But a lot people doesn't take things seriously. I mean while love is a serious business for people,but friendship is not. According to people things differ but there should be a particular limit for everything. I always thought that what it would be like if the emotions will have certain boundaries and certain rules. It would be whole different business. Because when it comes to rules there is always be a agreement between two parties. But yes again when it comes to heart rules are not exactly followed, and specifically the two relationships I am talking about runs on emotions, and tears and laugh is a thing that always comes from heart if it is true. So yes, I was talking about trueness of a relationship. may it be any relationship. You know the honest and most true relationship is a mother and child's relationship. Other than that their is never a 100% for anything. Obviously I am talking about a real scenario here that's why all this philosophy. I always thought u would be my strength. I always thought friendship is bigger than anything. Even you know there is something in my mind that always keeps you ahead of love. I felt we are a team that can be never be broken . I thought we can conquer any situation. But these situations were always against. I always thought, no u would understand what's important and whats not. But yes there is never a one sided relationship . May be things were never like this from your side. It's not your fault obviously, not Even mine. May be we can blame the situation, the time , everything. It's not always a boy to girl thing to get attract to each other, it's a personality thing , it's a person to person thing. Ours were a true friendship, until things started changing. You were Always a priority. You will be may be. Because you know I am a fool. I have a bad habit of forgiving people. Here it's not a case to forgive, because I can't blame any of us . I thought of getting a soul sister through you. But yes I won't bother anymore. May be can silently wait for someday. It doesn't even matter to me anymore. Because I am already habituated. Everything comes with a expiry date. I have to get the fact. Understand it and take it positively. And move in life. Change my thinking. Yes, best of luck for life. Hope our ways doesn't intersect each other's of its not for a positive outcome.
Bye.

P.s- this is not related to any person alive or dead. This is purely my imagination and part of weird thoughts generated by my equally weird mind.

My valley of love

Sky fallen on the edge of my love , and the whole world started sinking , I took a step forward towards the valley and let myself fall in the depth of your love , and get lost in the darkness of the secrecy , and lets the warmth wrap me inside it , that once led me to u , the fragrance of life , the bloomed flower of life . But things have changed , the colours darkened the valley started falling pieces by pieces , the valley that once looked green has turned into ashes , the colours are lost , it's grey and lifeless, the flowers are dry and dead, the flowing streams no longer beautiful, seem like just water , the happiness replaced by a silence. And in the middle of destruction stood I? Wondering what I did? My fault?